Days go by

Sometimes an entire day will pass and cancer doesn't even enter my mind-not once! Yes, after the anguish of last year, I can go full days without thinking of cancer.

Then, there are days when the idea of cells in my body running amock, attempting to destroy everything in their path, weighs on me like the sins of the world. I become immobile, blind to all but the unsettled feeling that the scurge may return. All logic and intelligence pack their travelling cases and leave me to steep in fear and illogical thinking.

I have no idea why some days are spent in the full light of health and healthy thinking and other days I cannot see beyond the gloom. I imagine that such thinking is all part of dealing with cancer.

I don't hide the fact that I hate cancer and the cruel tricks it plays. But I love the strength of victory and survival. And I AM VICTORIOUS!