Radiation

I delayed radiation in order to go to a reading conference in Minneapolis. I went to meet up with my oldest sister, Emily, and my dear friend, Jeri, to listen to authors,gather authographs, and avoid the reality of my own vulnerability . Emily spent her time watching me, wondering how much cancer had changed me. She was vigilant about not letting me put my purse on my right shoulder or carrying anything heavier than a fork. Jeri was ever watchful, making sure that I laughed, had plenty of coffee, and generally enjoyed myself. Although I missed my dear Michael, I hated coming home. I didn't want any more reminders of cancer. I wanted it to go away and secretly wished that if I stayed away, cancer and its aftermath would,too. How wrong I was.