Avoidance

It has been quite a bit of time since I last posted. Some of my dear readers have nudged me, telling me how much they enjoy reading my thoughts, following my Spring Folly. I have politely smiled, nodded and gently changed the subject. I haven't posted because I am scared. I'm scared of cancer and I hate what it has done to me. I hate that I feel as if I will forever look over my shoulder. I hate that my dear ones have changed the way they think of me, that I am no longer their in control, ever determined, strong Lady Di. I hate that people feel as if they need to protect me, that they hover, constantly checking on me. I hate that I will always be certain that any ache, pain, discomfort is the cancer manifesting itself somewhere else in my body. I hate that I learned that I am mortal, my life is finite.
But, I also love the village that surrounded me during my darkest days. I love the people that walked besides me, and sometimes had to carry me.
I love the support and strength I have gotten from you. Thanks for reading. Thanks for loving. Thanks for being you.